Serenity Farm

One escape from city,

To feel the cold summer breeze,

A long hour drive,

Sitting in the car,

Side by side,

And that's the same radio song, 

That never cease to make me smile. 

Wandering around the farm,

From imaginery to real,

The meaningful silence, wind whirling, 

Breathing, singing,

Dancing and laughing,

Oh was that the peacefulness,

I was all the while dreaming with?

As i watch the cows eating grass,

All warm i feel right inside, somehow.

The green grass and cold blue sky,

This other side of paradise,

Please stop fading in time.

A place i really wish to stay,

For the rest of my life.

Such a beauty natural scenery,

That feeling of peace and serenity,

A remedy to temporal relief,

As the wind begin to sing,

Only to realize,

How simple, 

And beautiful a life can literally be.

Oh You~

This poetry is written by a friend of mine in another circle and so kind of him dedicated this to me. 
Written by: Liam

Untitled lol

Oh your eyes...
Those beautiful, sparkling eyes,
The source of all her passions,
The teller of no lies.

Oh your lips...
Those soft and tender lips,
Where upon the glass of life,
You savour and you sip.

Oh your hair...
Your sunlit beautiful hair,
That drapes upon your shoulders,
Showing perfection, oh so rare.

Oh your face...
Your stunning, beguiling face,
Where heaven can be sought,
And God can be embraced.

Oh your form...
Your delicate, slender form,
In dreams, beside me lay...
So tender and so warm.

Oh your soul...
Your gentle caring soul,
That longs for love in life,
Yet, life just can't console.

Oh God, Oh you ...
With your imperfections much,
Yet, when I think of love,
It's your soul I long to touch.


Well written. 
P/S: I don't mind pinjam anyone of you who needs a poetry to kaolui.

The half bridge of hope

Wrote a poem to express my current feeling, if only you get what i mean.

Standing on the boulder,
5000 ft above the ground,
Stuck between two cliffs,
So far apart from each.

Somehow you appeared,
Right at the opposite cliff, 
You have thrown your pride,
For me to be by your side.

Through the months you've tried,
Building the bridge,
As you walk on it.
To connect our cliffs.

Another starry night again,
I began to wonder,  
The place opposite my way,
Is not where i want to go.

I made my clearest decision,
To put an end to the confusion.
When you're just about to complete,
tying the last knot for the bridge.

From a distance i can see,
In the dark silence, the hatred towards me,
It's better to leave it incomplete,
Than burning the whole bridge, shouldn't we?

The half bridge of hope,
With the thick white of rope,
Slowly it vanishes, 
High up between the stones.


Written on 22-03-14
7.18pm

Change

Everything is perpetually changing in life, nothing stays forever but memories. People often stuck in the dilemmas of stay or change because they afraid of the unknown in future. To me, a change means a change, it doesn't need to be anything better than what you're currently having, you know what's best for you and you know what you want better than anyone else. Don't chain yourself down to society's expectation who always believe that:

I need a change to earn more than the amount i'm earning

I need a change to get a higher position than what i'm doing

I'm having a stable income a decent job and position but i don't have enough time to do what i love. Still, i'm happy because i'm living life with no worries.

But what if...

I want to make a change to become a degree-educated street performer who only earns few dollars a day (sometimes nothing at all) but i can make myself and people happy in many ways? 

I will be losing my current position,

I will not be earning as much as i'm being paid monthly,

I will be losing all the expectation from everyone.

BUT...

I'm having ample time to do what i love though i don't earn that much than a normal people, neither a stable job but still, i'm happy.

"Change" will not make you regret.

You will only end up having different thing that you need, or you don't.

You will definitely end up with something, no matter what changes you make.

You only live once to fight for what you what.

Everything has it's upside and downside so whether or not you make a change, the only thing you need to worry about is what you will get in the end but not comparing to see if it brings you to a better or worse situation than the life you're leading.  Always trust yourself that you will never make a wrong decision and even if thing goes wrong, tell yourself, it's just one of the challenges you need to overcome before reaching the thing you want.

You already know what you want the moment when you decide which to choose.

Another related self written poem: 

Change

Time changes,

Love changes,

Feeling changes,

And worse,

A person changes, too.

A change,

Needs courage,

Needs guidance,

On top of that,

The supports from major percentage.

That change,

Starting in you,

Doesn't need to go perfect,

At least a new place to discover,

For a better or worse, regardless.

New path to take, 

Speaks from your heart.

Half way there, already you are,

The moment you willing,

To make a change from the past.

A decision made, 

A new step to take,

A change to make,

A step to success.

You only live once so don't be afraid to make a change.

Life is meant to be discovered, because nothing stays forever.

"i will never change" 

Is a new era bullshit that people always say.

You wouldn't know what's lying ahead of you.

You need to keep discovering to see what's waiting infront of you,

Just remember,

Whichever path you take,

You will definitely end up what you want.

Change,

Is to discover.

To make a different out of your life.

Center of Attention, You

"And now the champion goes to..."

Holding her hands, we go on the stage,

We are the center of attention walking in a pair,

Mesmerized by her beautiful face and the long black hair,

She is one of the attractive girls i've ever seen, i swear,

Pretty, Beautiful, Talented, and Kind according to her friends,

And i'm not surprised when everyone gives me the jealous stare.

Holding her hands, we walk in the party,

This day again, we are the center of attention,

She looks so stunning, adorned with the dress length just above her knee.

I then give her the flowers and ask: Would you be my girl?

And i'm so lucky, when everyone gives me the jealous stare again, tonight.

For being able to hold an angel's hand and see her smile.

Holding her hands, we walk down the street,

This night, we are the center of attention that i wish i wasn't here,

As my insecurities and selfishness start acting up,

Again, I shout at her and i push her away,

She looks so sad and tears start running down her face,

And, that's the last time we hold our hands and i'm the one to blame.

He holds your hand, walking down the aisle,

You are still the center of attention and i wish i was him,

You look more beautiful tonight,

With that beguiling smile i've never seen on your face before,

I give him the jealous stare as tears start running down my face,

He is just one lucky guy, who have you in his life,

When i'm no longer the one, who stands beside you making you smile.

But, there's this fact that will never change, 

You will always be the center of attention in my world, forever.

The Minack- He is not coming home...Forever

I had a very strange dream that i am a single mother of a beautiful baby girl so i am writing this to describe the dream i had last night.
And..Minack theater somehow appeared in my dream..

So,here it goes..


Look at the most beautiful baby in the world,
So beautiful so sweet, she has grown up so much.
Struggling a lot for all these months,
The sun rises up when I see her smile.

That day when you came back to town,
Wondering if you still remember our child.
Swallowing my fear calling your number,
It's your voice, that i ever want to hear.

Walking in the theater keeping a hope,
That’s the Minack we used to go.
A familiar figure I was searching for,
You walked out on us and never come home.

One main reason I wish you to know,
How much our girl is missing her dad, you never know.
With sadness I say: Baby daddy’s not coming back,
She smiles as the tears falling from her eyes.

Don’t be afraid my little baby girl,
The best mother I will always be.
I promise I will never desert you,
We will be together forever and day.

28 Jan [Repost]

And one of the comments i received..

"It was inspiring." They said. =)

When It Rains

A composition by a friend of mine and so i played it on piano with my own version.

#playbyear

This is for you,you know who you are.And the video i posted along,is a very meaningful composition of this person.5 years ago, and now...the melody still stuck in my mind,whenever it rains..


When it rains
What a gloomy day on this Friday,
Feelings inside me i choose not to say.
Give you a text to release my pain,
Somehow i started to hate this rain.

Sometimes i think,will my effort go in vain?
The memories start flooding back,
When it starts to rain.
Just play 'Let it rains' when you think about the pain,
Everything will come to an end,and you'll be alright,i swear.



08 Jan.A gloomy beautiful Friday 

Post by Jessycarcher.

The Ache

A stranger you once loved no longer remember who you are.When you think you finally get over that someone,you're actually not after that certain thing triggers your memory again.The cycle of 'recovery' kinda repeats itself,like a never ending process no matter how hard you try to forget.

(Get that idea from a short film)
I named this poem as 'The Ache'.


Up above the peak,
So nostalgic,
Envy your glory,
Only wish to F* this shit.

It went un-replied,
I saw the sign.
I am all fine,
Just need some more wine.

Fragment of memory,
Invade my dream.
Soul shattering,
And the cycle repeats.


written in June 26th @5.00am
[repost]

When will the story begin?

So today i heard this song " When i was your man" by Bruno Mars on the radio and the melody kinda stuck in my mind.I spent my whole afternoon in SB,all alone,(with my headphones this time)and laptop like what i used to do since the first day i started my college life when i am bored at home.A guy came and have himself seated infront of me all of a sudden,introducing himself.it reminds me of the music video"begin again' by Taylor Swift.Go chk it out the MV if you're not sure what i am talking about.

Isnt it amazing?

With a heavy heart i wake up this morning,
With the pain in my chest from the dream i was having.
Yes,that's the dream that woke me in sleep,
I rise as i start to weep.

Who are you? What are you?
To haunt me without me having a clue?
Feeling blue, and I'm screwed,
They came back to me after i've thought it through.

Sitting in the cafe contemplating my fate,
Heart starts to leap with the beat,
By the songs from the list,
I look happy when my heart is betraying me.

As the sunlight shines through that window,
The trees swaying as the wind blowing,
With the song sing by Bruno,
"And it all just sound like uh,uh,uh~" (This last line is from the first line of chorus sing by Bruno Mars-When i was your man)

Back to a loner sitting at the corner,
Working on my song with my headphones on,
You come out of nowhere to fill in the gap,
Wondering will the story begin again?

22 Feb '13 [repost]

Dream

I woke up from a nice dream and literally shedded my tears the moment i awake knowing that it wasn't real.How to tell if a dream will come true?

Dreams..

Oh my dream,
So sad and so real.
The reason i hate to sleep,
It brings back the good memories.

Oh dear my dream,
You hurt me so badly.
With all the fantasy,
That is opposite from the reality.

Oh you my dream,
Please don't be my enemy.
Make it real for me,
With things that came in my dream!

Courage

‘Courage is when you’re afraid,and you found your strength anyway, and you keep on moving,anyway…’Orianthi & Lacey

“The most courageous thing to do, is identify yourself and know who you are.”


Courage is a strength, for me to make a change
Courage is a hand, to hold when I m crashed
Courage is a road to lead me when Im lost
Courage is a stone to teach me when I fall

Continue walking and never look back
Courage keeps you moving when you are afraid
Cope with the feelings it wont forever remain
Hold it tight forever you’ll never regret

One day you wake up and know who you are
When you found your way and back to the track
Courage is the word that leads you down the road
Courage is the strength to bring back all your hope..

Jan '13[Repost]

The Swan

Focus on what you really want instead of what u think it leads you..

Keep some dignity.Do something to make yourself be proud of yourself,even if it's hard.

I drew a picture,

A swan with black feather,

When i was told that is the worst drawing ever,

I repainted the feather,

into white color.

I then drew again another picture,

And this time,

I painted the feather into grey color,

Ended up i got the lowest mark in the hall,

I still remember.

I put the blame on the swan,

Why it doesn't look like what i want,

But who draw this picture,what a farce,

Still hiding inside the box,living in the dark.

Given a deeper thought,

Only to realize a picture of swan isn't what i want,

When that's what most of the people draw,in that hall.

I'll start all over again,

all alone,at this night,

To make myself proud of my own,

Without a swan,in my drawing board,anymore.

1.55am [Repost]

Wedding Poem

Just a quick and simple poem writing for a friend who is getting married and thanks for being part of my great memories during our time in uk with a bunch of friends.This is for you Navanit Varma Maragathamani and your wife.Wish you happiness and never let go easily no matter what.


Someday,i wish to see you smile
Someday,i wish to hold your hands

Someday,i hope to buy you things
Someday,i hope to give you a ring

This day,i kneel down my knee
This day,you say yes to me
This day,we tie the knot like the other scene
This day,you mean the world to me

One day,we will have our own family
One day,we will have our beautiful babies
One day,we will become a memory
One day,I will forever held your hands,no matter how it ends.
One love, a thousand years,a trillion years,never fade away...


19.03.13 [Repost]

And Someday.....

You ain't know

Written by myself a year back.A very tedious recovery process but at least my efforts weren't all for naught, at least i am now loving my life now more than i ever thought possible. 

Today is the first day of 2014, waking up with an unusually great feeling, which is a good sign telling me that this year will be much better than the previous and no more emo-ness and no more clinging to the pains and experiences that have passed.

Another thing is, the significant day is approaching real fast like i don't even have a week left to prepare. A life changing day to once again prove my own capability and outshine the contemporaries. 


There is a few songs that i hate,
The song that you used to like is one of them.
It triggers the memories i once had,
My heart just sank thinking about the past.

If i have a switch to turn it off,
I wont be here grieving the loss.
But i have now become so strong,
And much stronger than you ever thought.

Throughout my life people come and go,
Leaving me in sorrow for every tomorrow.
As day goes by, I am slowly letting go,
Time is the savior of my soul.

Now i have learned, this hard way, is the best,
As i am able to find back my way.
Stop coming back and bring back the mess,
Thanks for the past,and i am truly blessed.

Jessycarcher

Till then,
JC

Sorry for associating my post to the irrelevant cute paws =) I just simply like it a lot.

Just For Today

Just for this morning i'll wake up early than usual to do an extra lap in the pool;

Just for this morning i'll ignore all the phone calls and lead a day life my own;

Just for this morning i'll ignore all the messages to make peace no war.

Just for this afternoon i'll vent out the dissatisfaction on dayre, which is not meant to be shown.

Just for this afternoon I'll spend my time sipping my cup of espresso reading my favorite book in the nearby coffee shop.

Just for this afternoon i'll shop my ass off thinking about how beautifully we hit it off that day in the mall.

Just for this afternoon i'll listen to 'Remember when' to think about those significant 'days' that meant be remembered.

Just for this evening i'll turn my headphones up for a temporal amnesia to the current things that got me screwed.

Just for this evening i'll stop carrying out the deception and reveal the truth to some me-life spoilers.

Just for this evening i'll spend my time watching tv but not checking my instagram seeing the unfolding life of others.

For the past 24 years of being so vulnerable,

Just for a day before a new start tomorrow i'll learn how to swerve to avoid the risk of being harmed.

Just for a day before a new start tomorrow i'll stop being good to people who doesn't appreciate the hard work i've done.

Just for a day before a new start tomorrow i'll stop dedicating myself to working my ass off. 

Just for a day before a new start tomorrow i'll stop giving my best to people who don't worth my time sacrificing for.

Mark my words.

Someday

Someday

* I do not own any of this pictures posted below. Just taking those different photos from anywhere to make up a story out of boredom. 

We knew each other since we were little 

And, we really enjoy the time we spend together

Girl : Why would you wanna marry me for anyhow?

Boy: So i can kiss you anytime i want

I will love you as long as i live, i promise.

Boy: Don't cry i was just away for 10 minutes just to get you some colorful flowers.

Girl : Hey old man, so today...after lunch what's for dinner? Since you've been away for so many years i am getting tired of deciding where to eat. 

And i know, you're not gonna come back to eat with me anymore.

Soon another autumn is coming...

And i'm truly blessed to be able to spend this season together with you finally, after we've been apart for more than so many years.

Boy: Hey finally you're here ! I've been waiting you for so long just to hold your hand once again.

Girl : I'm here, and will never leave you anymore.

 True love does exist.

Someday my dreams will come true,
Someday you will give me a ring,
Someday when I am ready,
Someday I hope we marry,
Someday you will need to go,
Someday and so must i, 

Somehow our love never dies,

and someday it will continue...

Someday...

(JC)

#Framatic it seems like my another short simple#selfwrittenpoem #someday part II is quite popular over the past one hour. #inspiration

The gemstone and the rock

Tripped, 
And fell into the river that runs,
A huge gemstone in front was all i found,
If it wasn't you,i would've drowned,
A beautiful melody,
I wouldn't know how it sounds.

Heavy downpours,
No longer a threat for my world,
I have you stopped me from falling,
Stuck in there,in the flowing river,
I dance in the breeze,
Without any worries.

Fast flowing water,
Never cease to flow through us,
Sooner the gemstone ends up with scratches,
No longer beautiful it can remain,
With the small little rock stuck with it,still,
That afraid flowing down from the hill.

With the guilt i feel,
I shall go,to where the river flows,
Leaving you behind to shine,
With no further scratches,
That this little rock has unwittingly caused.

Once again,this rock started her journey,
In this longest river that flows,
Leading her to one direction she'll never know,
Alone with her soul,
Looking up in the sky,with the sunshine,
Being brave and strong enough this time,
And.......I smile.


Written on 16Mar @5.26pm

Love...anything

Heart of stone

The silent goodbye
Getting real as time passes by
Its been some time,and..she sighs
With the story,she cant hide
from her deep dark eyes.

For years,she build up this whole armor
And someone broke it, in an hour
So vulnerable
She is now temporarily defeated
In this battle.

Too hard to swallow
Reaching down the bottom of her soul
With the guidance she follow
Brick by brick,to rebuild the heart of stone
She once owned.

Strong and steady as a weed
Bend but never break as wind blowing
Looking soft to be bullied
But the rock-shaped heart in her body
Has taught her a great deal
To become..somebody.

Written on 11 March 2013

A picture is worth a thousand words

(Pictures copied from the other sources)

Who Hurt You? (W.H.Y)

Who Hurt You? (W.H.Y)

Why we tend to hurt,

People that we love?

Why we still choose to love,

When we have been hurt?

Why we tend to remember,

Things that could haunt us forever?

Why we tend to hurt people,

With things they could forever remember?

Why we refuse to give up,

With something that not belong to us?

Why we tend to give up,

Before we thought they might be the one that got away?

Why are we so persistent,

With something that we love,

But not something that brings us happiness?

Why?

Written on 30/03/2013

(Re-post) 

I am Awesome

It was a great night,

Under the beautiful sky,

With the precious gift i hold so tight,

I just want to see you smile.

Can't remember when was the last fight,

And the tears came i have no way to hide,

Asked you to stay but no matter how hard i tried,

You shake your head and left me in despair.

The next day you escaped to a place,

Erasing even the slightest trace.

And I called you that day you left,

"Good bye" was all you have to say.

In the state of defeated,

Falling into the darkness,

With my broken armor.

**********

[Below are all copied from the video]

And NOW i know....

I'm precious, I'm a diamond, rose, pearl,

The most stunning of all god's creation.

I'm worth more, than i could ever imagine.

My worth, surpasses All earthly things,

I'm loved, and worth dying for.

And any of the voices in my mind that try to tell me differently,

are from the enemy.

I will tell them, not me Satan, I'm the daughter of the living god,

Cherished, Loved, Adored above all things.

I AM AWESOME !

I will never forget.

I worth more than anything you can ever think of, including you.

Because of you, I am who i am right now.

I'm sorry i have to disappoint you by getting much stronger now.

Stronger than you can ever imagine.