Part of the growing up process is to be able to learn how to leave the past behind. For better or worse those are the things that shape who we are right now, and we cant rewind back nor erase the things that happened. Fact is, there's no way for us to go back and change the past. It's nothing more like a self-inflicted pain when you choose to dwell in the past and worse when you keep comparing yourself to someone in the past, obsessing over whether they are much talented, smarter, prettier, taller, then the next thing you starting to feel so dysfunctional, extremely worthless, keep devaluing yourself which leads to feelings of insecurity, jealously, inadequacy, you name it. You feel like you're lacking of something and not good enough to be loved because they have those certain attractive qualities that you have to live without.
You just never feel good about yourself no matter what.
I always have this self provoking conversations running through my mind, then i contradict myself, again, we don't see ourselves the exact same way other people see us, but no, we see ourselves as how and what we really are. Confused?
Sometimes you just know it too well that keep comparing will only kill yourself and your present relationship slowly, it does nothing more than threatening you emotionally and destroying your current happiness. But hey, i just can't help.
Ask yourself, then why do they stay?
Holding on too tightly is purely self-harming when you have a choice to choose a happier path than staying stuck in the past. I know.
Live in the present, everything happens and ends up for a reason.
I care too much and wish i could care a little less than that from now on.
And yes, I'm happy, i really am.
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