Getting into a relationship is never that easy, there's a lot of important issues you need to consider before starting a new relationship because when i say i really love you, it's a promise of a lifetime from me to you. I don't want to be in a relationship that's going no where and sadly there's nothing i can do to beat the fear of the unknown. All i ever need is the support of a long-term relationship.
Sometimes I wish my relationship was made of clay i can mold it to however shape i want it to be. I have a lot going through my mind in this very moment. Just hate falling too hard for someone i can't be with. I love him, but i just can't force myself to be in a relationship too soon before i have all my worries and feelings justified.
My first serious relationship was with this younger boy 2 years ago but years of insecurities culminated in a nasty breakup and you wouldn't imagine how break and crumble i was back in those crappy days when i can't even sleep for more than a week. I could have staved off that heart-break if i took her advice the first place, she said. I nodded as tears pouring down my face.
2 years later, putting aside all the crushes i have met and faded, i met him. Physically wise he's hundred percent totally opposite of him. For the real feels though, there's is some resemblance which i can't verbally explain - and that could be the reason why i fall so easily for this particular one. The infatuation that is instantly developed within i can't exactly explain the chemistry that just so happens, it's like the fireworks explode in the dark, and we see the brilliant lights, the stars, the sky full of hope that ends in the blink of an eye. Yeah, for that moment i thought he could be the one for me, finally.
Family is the priority in my life. Their advice can never, ever, go wrong. I don't trust my own judgement in dating, i end up feeling insecure turning down a few prospect partners until the beginning of this year. You came and brighten up the tunnel of my life. He's such a joker, he laughs a lot, he makes people happy, he gives me all his attention i ever need, i'll be damned if i let him go, i know i can't.
For now I just need some space to clear my head, and not forgetting to wish everyone a happy Easter 2015 =)
Good morning to you,
And good night to myself.
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