YOU MAKE ME SMILE..SO EFFORTLESSLY

There has been nearly few months of hiatus for the private emotional issues, not that bad after all, I promised myself that all of the personal emotional issues should not be exposed in public because of all the on-off relationships which I have now done dealing with but apparently from what it seems I’m breaking my promise again when someone I’m crushing on wander into my life lighting up the tunnel, came crossing my path breaking this whole invisible armor I’ve built a little more than 2 months ago. Truth is, among all the crushes I had, he doesn’t have a single thing I was looking for in a man, but my heart just mysteriously grow fonder and I admit I fell so hard for this guy as we get much closer, never knew what I was missing until we started to talk again, each and every single night about something I don’t usually share with anyone else after my first serious relationship with a guy I used to be so close with but have since grown apart like we never knew each other at all, well my fault.  

People say that oftentimes the one that’s right for you probably is someone you never notice around you. For some reason I couldn’t agree more.

I like him a lot, which I can’t pinpoint why. But the one thing that certainly attracts me is the devotion he shows toward his family. From my very own perspective a family oriented man understands the deeper value of faithfulness and commitment. At this very instant I feel so blessed to have him in my life, as for now that I realize nothing can really stop the way my heart’s beating whenever I see him. I don’t want to push things beyond the line just yet before I have all my feelings justified. 

He gives me that butterflies floating in my tummy kinda feeling like no one else can. He has the most annoying habits and is a real pain in the neck, precious and special, nonetheless. 

I don’t usually open up to people and constantly hide my real feelings from anyone - so they usually find it hard to connect with me. So i told myself the next guy i meet i will have to let them experience a different me, trying every possible way to learn from the past - how to love someone even better. 

Confession : I'm too egoistic to admit my feeling.Too much a coward to rather suppress my emotions and find it hard to share my innermost thoughts fearing of being judged by others. Eventually things start boiling inside, the whole thing backfires, and resentment continues.

I don't want to rush to any conclusions just yet.

But, 

I couldn't be more thankful for his existence. 

I thank you for bringing so much joy and love to my life.

Yes you, Vincent. =)