Sorry and thank you

I walked in my room, plopped the stack of papers down infront of me and flopped on my bed to check my phone, something I always do when I come home.
Instagram - checked; 
Facebook - checked; 
online business - checked; 
tumblr - checked; 
whatsapp - all replied.

The next thing to do - thinking what I should do to kill my boredom. I've always have plans during my dayoff but this time I was really looking forward to kicking back and do nothing - a good way to recharge my battery to make myself more productive for the next coming working day.

But the fact is, I'm literally dying of boredom and feel extremely lonely ( that's a killer ! ) to spend this day at home doing absolutely nothing and here and you may have or not noticed I'm again contradicting myself, It's like me gets jealous occasionally seeing my friends are all now in a relationship yet I keep convincing myself I don't really need anyone at this point of life. Well life isn't about these all quick flings, getting the right partner is never an easy task for it's a matter of long run dealing with the right one that can make you truly happy. Everyone that I met was too perfect for me in my opinion and i choose someone for the reasons i see fit and could give me a feeling I can be totally myself but not stressing throughout spending time in giving out the best impression to lock them in a way. If you one day notice that I'm pulling the plug off something you should get a clear picture of it right now.

It's like....the fire that was once burning so bright so fiercely with the beautiful flickering flames that had soon dwindled into darkness in the heat of the moment. You might have misconceptions about me with what 'we' have done but I would rather keep the truth to myself at least now that I think of it, I know it wasn't a right thing to keep on doing and I've decided to put a stop to this.

Thanks for being a part of me growing up as a person who is now able to swerve to miss those holes in the street with a proper grip of steering wheel - to avoid all the poor surfaces and protect myself against any unnecessary dangers. Sorry and thank you, for once playing an important role adding some colors in my life. We should both move on and start looking for someone who's worth the amount of love we will be entirely giving out when those paths are amazingly aligned one day...without us realizing.