A note from one hermit crab

Everything fell into stagnation and now it feels like im entering the lowest valleys of my life feeling all depressed and unmotivated. I'm here again tonight to write down the feelings and thoughts I've been contemplating throughout the day. I am supremely upset with something I'm not sure, feeling absolute disoriented today, for some reasons I wish I know how to even describe. There's a voice keeps telling me to do something and breakthrough this self-imposed shell I've been hiding in for years like one hermit crab. I'm too safe living in my own comfort zone and of course I'm certainly aware the value of walking out of your comfort zone and seek for what challenges you pushing you beyond the limit of expectation making you a better person because you wouldn't know how far you can go without the will of trying. Sounds so cliche to say that it doesn't matter how many times you fail but at least you try. 50% of something is always better than 100% of nothing, ironically that's my favorite sentence to motivate and encourage people who's literally lost in their life without knowing where to go. I never once convince myself with the words I normally use to keep people from falling into the downward spiral because I by choice allowing myself to slide backward when I know exactly which path I should take. I live a life more like a curse than opportunity and I waste most of my time self loathing for being not good enough and making no progress at all from the life I once lead few years back. How I wish I was granted such courage to make a change on certain things I've done it wrongly in the past but no point looking back with regrets because it is what it is already there's nothing you can do to bring them back. But there's one thing I'm overwhelmingly proud of is that I have the ability to navigate my own life through ups and downs that I've been experiencing to where I am exactly right now, because that's actually not an easy task to decide making your own choice of life and fully trust yourself to lead all the way to somewhere you may or may not know how you'll end up. That's always a thing that plague your mind, keeping you from moving forward to see what's lying ahead. I think too much it hurts my mind and emotion right now. I have a lot more to say but it's 1.22am now I really need to go get some sleep. I sincerely hope that I will have a better tomorrow each and every day. I will try each possible way to not give in to that evil thought and lord please give me some more positive vibes to keep my positivity running in my head. It's just another one emotional night I have so much to blurp out in this one piece of paper......